songs of solitude;

failure.

heavy heart today.

one blow after another leaving me face down in the dirt. skinned knees and abraisioned palms. i'm not sure i know where to go from here. wipe off the dirt? dry the tears?

my birthday is in two days. i don't care. i feel like a deflating balloon. what happened to me?

failure. i'm drowning in my own failure. i don't want to be an A student. i just want to get by. but i can't even seem to do that for myself. i know this is a test, but truthfully i grow weary of the testing. i just want to be for a while. just living.

i sound depressed. perhaps i am. i hate that school does this to me. i hate that you helped do this to me. i hate that i am doing this to me.

i need to get out of here. i can't breath.

~np

posted by crooked girl @ 9:27 PM