songs of solitude;

la semana pasado

reading week has come and gone and i am left wondering where the time went. try as i might, not nearly enough school work was accomplished. productivity has yet to become a part of my daily routine. i think i spend too much time thinking.

sometimes there's just too much to think about, really. i got accepted into my university's year abroad program in Ecuador. from september to april i will be living somewhere near Quito, hoping that it will provide me with some much needed enlightenment. sure, i am there to study and volunteer. but mainly i hope to learn - if only more about myself.

In all this future planning the summer seems only seconds away. i have joined WWOOF - World Wide Opportunities on Organic Farms. the membership lasts for a year and allows me to visit any number of farms across Canada (i only signed up for the Canadian membership) and learn about sustainable living. I would love to venture north to the great territories of this country, but in order to save up for my south american travels, i may only venture out east, to Nova Scotia and Cape Breton. the guide book they mailed me has over 30 pages of hosts listed, each with a bio so enticing that it seems impossible to decide. but Nova Scotia seems to have many sustainable housing projects on the go - in addition to organic farming - which fascinates me.

the majority of my reading break has been devoted to thinking about these things, but mainly in sourcing out the possibility of Esmeralda being seen by Sick Kids hospital in Toronto. after repeatedly emailing since my return from Peru, to no avail, I went downtown first thing Monday to see if i could find anyone who could give me answers. the 7th floor of the Elm wing provided just that. the secretary of the international patients department informed me that such a program does exist (known as the Herbie Fund) for children without medical insurance. she has since sent me the application form (which hopefuly won't take Angela's family too long to complete). she estimated that upon submitting the application it will take the committee 2-3 months to review it, and then after being accepted, it will take 2-3 for the surgery to happen.

when i think of the whole Esmeralda situation i can't help but get anxious. i feel like i'm trying to run through water - it doesn't seem to matter how badly i want to move faster, i just can't. it breaks my heart to know that little Esmy is trying desperately to starting crawling and walking. each attempt is met only with frustation as her limitations keep her even more imobile than my futile attempts at helping her.

time...is just racing after us all.

~np

posted by crooked girl @ 2:37 PM